a thought, or two...

I am wondering why this year seems different. No tree up yet, a few decorations out that were handy but most still stored in the garage, although I am enjoying the trees at the "office"--but why? Looking for cards to send but none seem just right. Son & wife arriving in 9 days and want to have it nice for them but still not overblown--why? I think, possibly, with the change of venue there is more of an awareness of the lost & forlorn & forgotten--myriads of phone calls and emails expressing basic needs & requests for support in greif, illness, loss of employment, financial setbacks etc. How to deal? I cannot save the world (that's already been done) and yet, there are things prepared for me to do. Do I recognize them? Or do I ignore them in favor of my own self-comfort? Gratitude certainly expressed to the one that has provided me life but am I listening? Sometimes I just think we need to be quiet and let the whisper become our reality.

Or, maybe, I am just old.

What do you think?

I don't know...

...but I do know I am going to PA & thoughts soar forward...things to do, each day to live (not just survive), until hugs & snuggles & giggles & cuddles, thank you, thank you, thank you,...what more do I need? Some day a gathering all together is the hope but content for now...

thoughts.....

It's Friday. The middle, did you hear me, the middle of October. Fall in the air & the end of another year in sight. I'm starting to hunker down with my blankie--hibernating until the sun returns. I fix dinner all summer at 8 or 9 pm & don't even think a thing about it. I made dinner 2 nights ago @ 7:30 and apologized for serving it so late and then I looked at the clock and said Oh! not late just dark. I am puttering and turning inward as the light wanes--when the time changes I will think it is bedtime by 6:30. Making pots of chili and pans of roasted veggies which are a welcome change from salads although by March I will be craving that fresh asparagus & farmer's market bounty.

I love the seasons and always think that I wouldn't want to live where the sun shines every day. I was disappointed actually when the weather forecast for the week didn't show any rain. But, to everything there is a season and so I will be content and thankful in the day and what it brings.

Three books--Christian Atheist, Radical & Forgotten God--read, read & reading which mess with my contentment and another I just bought because I like the title--Crave--& the cover & the chapter in the middle of the book begins with the line "I don't like people". So, must read and ponder.

A beautiful weekend looms--71 degrees, fall colors, no plans other than packing up the flip flops for another season, sewing a stitch or two, and enjoying a cool sunset. Next week will begin with saying goodbye to a beloved lady, mentor, & friend and so with that perspective I think I will enjoy the gift of each day.

Be blessed today.

almost August...

It's coming!!!! The end of summer, the beginning of school...oh, wait no more school for me, tee hee. As it looms for so many in some "tough" circumstances (let's face it, their circumstances are just not as tough as those starving in third-world nations or being trafficked across the world) I continue to pray that their character will shine thru even in the darkness. A city on a hill...today's verse...a reminder that there is so much more than those circumstances that loom so huge in our human view; circumstances when viewed thru the eyes of the Spirit that become pinpricks...(I know, I use too many ellipses, but don't you just love them......................................it gives such room for thought & comtemplation & perhaps revelation?) The boss has been gone all week & I have the place pretty much to myself with the occasional welcome encounter even tho some are unsettling, challenging me to look beyond myself to what is truth untainted. Ahhhh, do you see the light changing, heading south, bringing new things, bringing us ever closer? I am in love.......................

a whole new world....

So here I am in my new space. It is awesome. My heart sings, my feet dance, my spirit flies......who knew it would be so easy to go? Those other posts before this one? They seem but a distant memory and the closer it gets to the beginning of that other life the more freedom I feel. I will be praying that those left behind stand firm, start strong, extend grace and rely on the one source that can guide their way. As for me, I think I should schedule some vacation days during that first week but alas, not possible. I am in a whirlwind of learning new things, cleaning out old things, adjusting to a much more fluid environment. Good things--I have windows to see outside!! Heavenly!! I can wear flip-flops!! Blissful!! There is a pervading sense of selflessness!! Blessed!! And a peace that flows.....and coffee ;) Have a glorious day.

And so, the seasons change......

I am done. No longer coffee-break librarian (although sometimes I think librarian is a state of mind & processes) but onward to a new view of the horizon. Office manager, administrative assistant, secretary, bookkeeper, gatekeeper, counselor?, what? All of the above? At 50?!? Am I crazy????? No, I don't think so. A new job to match the rhythm of my heart. And not so much a job, but a call. Saying goodbye here is tough--co-workers who have become friends, friends both past & present who feel like family. A thousand memories--good & bad. Laughter & tears, smiles & fears, lip-syncing to Mamma Mia!, fighting for the right & the wrong, life & living, death & dying, etc., etc., etc. As the weather warms so does my heart. Time to end, time to begin. To every thing there is a season......Bye.

Life.....

is happening all around us. Good & bad, up & down, around & around & around. In my last post I said I was going to match the rhythm of my days to my heart & spirit. It's already Feb. & I don't feel like I have much success. Circumstances, earthquakes in Haiti, family & friends in crisis, all contribute to a mounting sense of it's out of control. And I realize, luckily for me, it is out of my hands and all I can do is pray, live by faith & do what I have been called to do. This life is difficult for everybody at one time or another and at any given moment it can be altered beyond recognition. And so, I am amending that statement to say I am going to match my heart & spirit to foundational truths whether I can see them in the moment or not. Faith shall be my guardian and with help love will hopefully be my response and I believe I will keep trying to leave the author of my story in charge of the pen. Blessings.